So, I know I haven't been around here very much, whether that's for drawing or writing and uploading stuff or just replying to comments, but I've been a bit inindated with things happening IRL. I'm not trying to make any excuses, just letting you know I haven't dropped off the face of this spinning planet.

This past week has been really... interesting, for lack of something better to call it. It has also been really long. Not just because of school (though I daresay that hasn't helped a bit!), but something happened on Thursday night while I was studying for my physics exam that I didn't forsee. I should've seen it coming, but I just... didn't. <_<

But I decided that I desperately want to write a bit more with the trio (Scott, Sam and Michael). I hate to admit this, but I'm turning more and more into Sam as time goes on, which can be evidenced by some of my actions yesterday. For those of you who don't know, Sam's probably the only person who can really push her brother or Michael around at all. And she really does sometimes.

Anyhow, I should probably get going before I'm almost late to class again~

So, I've been pretty sick all weekend (since Friday morning, actually). But I am feeling a bit better this morning, at least physically. I still wasn't actually able to eat anything this weekend, so I've been surviving off of cough drops and water. Probably not the most healthy thing, but whatev.

I guess one thing that I've realised while being sick is how thankful I am for close friends. During the time that I actually spent awake this weekend, I was talking with one of my really close friends on instant messenger. Fortunately, influenza cannot be transmitted through the interwebz.

Anyhow, I should probably get going now. I need to rest up a bit before I finish what needs to be done. I promised a friend I would go on a journey and I need to recover my full strength again before I set out to do so.

Well, classes start again today. I think this is the fourth time I've written about school starting in this journal, which is amazing.

So I altered the "amor et odium" piece slightly and gave it to a friend. Unfortunately, I think the original one still looks better, so I didn't even bother taking a picture of it to upload.

I'm actually really excited because I'm taking one physics class (from my advisor), three philosophy/theology courses (!!!) and an introductory psych class. Hoorah for gen eds. No really.

Hmm... I think I need a bit more sleep. Oh well, I can come back after my last class this afternoon and take a nap. It is my own fault for staying up past midnight and then choosing to set my alarm for 5:30AM so that I'd have time to get on the computer and eat breakfast before having to leave for class.

And I kind of wish I lived on campus because that would make some things a heck of a lot easier. Like getting IRL hugs. But it would also make things a lot harder and a heck of a lot more awkward sometimes...

Last night was just... wierd. I think that's all I'm going to say here.

With that said, I should really get ready for class now. Hoorah!~

Just a little short something I wrote... I hope you enjoy.

I cannot fly anymore. I used to have wings, but he took them away from me and broke them. I don't even want to think about it right now, but my mind cannot keep itself from thinking of him. I don't know his real name, so I shall just call him Chris. Ironic. I've always liked that name. But not this time. Because it reminds me of him. The man who took my wings away.

These wings were a gift a long time ago and I've just learned how to use them. I guess I was born with them, but I can't know for sure. As I discovered more about myself and the world around me, they just grew until they were large enough to support my weight. I learned how to fly. She was the one who taught me how to fly, to use these wings. It is because of her that I put forth the effort into practicing and it is because of her patience when she taught me and because of her compassionate love for me (even though I assure you I do not deserve it) that I was able to learn.

She was my only true friend when the world was full of enemies and a light to help find my way in the darkness of my mind. Don't assume that we didn't argue because that isn't true; we did argue... we even fought, exchanging bitter words with one another in the irrational heat of anger. But because of that, the bond of our friendship strengthened. She taught me that sometimes a smile can change someone's day for the better and that having words to say isn't really necessary. She instructed me in a different way of viewing the world and that the scientific method doesn't always provide the answer. But most important of all, she taught me how to fly.

But now she is gone. I will never see her again. And because I will never see her again, my wings are broken. As hard as I try, they will not work anymore. So Chris cut them off. It was very painful and I remember screaming. Not so much from the pain, but from realising that they are gon, never to return. I will never be able to fly again.

Perhaps it is possible to fly without wings, but I have been told that will be very difficult, if not impossible. This is what Chris told me. "Have hope," he said. But hope is something that does not exist. Not in a world without her and since she is gone forever, how can the world have hope? No, I do not think I will ever be able to fly again. Especially without my wings. My beautiful silver wings.

I want... no... I need my wings back. Without them, I cannot fly. And without the ability to fly, life is pointless.

I am bored. And I have a bed now!~

RULES:
- Tell 100 Truths
- Tag 15 people after
- They do the same back to you
- Do Not Pass Go
- Do Not Collect $200

LAST:
1. Last beverage : Aqueous dihydrogen monoxide chilled to approxiately 10 degrees Celcius
2. Last phone call : My sister!
3. Last text message : I think my roommate, but I erased a lot of my messages recently.
4. Last song you listened : Whatever they had playing at work....
5. Last time you cried : Couple weeks ago when I was talking to one of my friends on AIM.


SIX HAVE YOU EVER’s
6. Dated someone twice : No
7. Been cheated on? : No
8. Kissed someone & regretted it? : No
9. Lost someone special? : Sort of
10. Been depressed? : No
11. Had a friend turn on you : Yeah

LIST FOUR FAVORITE COLORS:
Black, purple, dark blue, green

HAVE YOU:
12. Made new friends : Yeah, a few really good ones.
13. Fallen out of love : No.
14. Laughed until you cried : Yeah, probably.
15. Met someone who changed : Everyone changes.
16. Found out who your true friends : Yeah and we've been through quite a lot together.
17. Found out someone was talking about you : No, it's more like I'll be talking about someone (or thinking about them) and they'll show up. "Speak of the devil" and all that, I suppose.
18. Kissed anyone on your friend's list : Yeah.
19. How many people on your friend's list have you dated?: None, and I'd only even consider dating one of them.
20. How many kids do you want : None of my own. I'd rather adopt.
22. Do you want to change your name : Unofficially shorten it, yes. Change it, not particularly.
23. What did you do for your last birthday : Spent seven hours in the lab, then went out for dinner with Christian and Dan. But I know what I want to do this year.
24. What time did you wake up today : Slightly before 3AM local time, but my internal time clock was telling me it was closer to 5 or 6AM.
25. What were you doing at midnight last night : Asleep.
27. Last time you saw your father : A few months ago.
28. One thing you wish you could change about your life : That I could be a physics and philosophy major.
29. What are you listening to right now : In my head? Evanescence... <_<
30. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom : Yes.
31. What's getting on your nerves right now? : Not much, really.
32. Most visited web page : My school's webpage

ABOUT ME:
33. What's your name : Like I'd tell you.
34. Nicknames : E, Eli (as a friend from school spells it), various names of my fictional characters
35. Zodiac sign : Don't know the western version
36. Male or female : Apparently I talk more like a guy than most girls do, but I talk more like a girl than most guys do.
37. Elementary : Some small school
38. Middle School : Private school
39. High school : Same private school
41. Long or short hair : Just long enough to tie back, so a bit too long
42. Height : I'm about the same height as Michelangelo was, apparently.
43. Do you have a crush on someone? : *silence*
44. number 44 doesn't exist. so instead of a question here's a smiley: Alright, who decided to get rid of 44?
45: What do you like about yourself physically? : My eyes are really cool looking, but they don't function too well.
46. Piercings : Nope
47. Tattoos : None
48. Righty or lefty : I write with my right hand, but I do just about EVERYTHING else left-handed, so you take your pick.

FIRSTS:
49. First surgery : Never
50. First piercing : None
51. First best friends : Don't remember really, but I do remember being friends with Laura and Michael. That would've been in elementary school sometime.
52. First sport : Swimming. I can't remember ever NOT knowing how to swim.
53. First pet : Dog
54. First vacation : Hawaii, I think, but I was too young to remember.
55. First concert : My only concert, really. Our youth group went to see Michael W. Smith and Avalon.

RIGHT NOW:
57. Eating : Haven't eaten anything since lunch (at 9AM)
59. Drinking : I have my waterbottle...
60. I'm about to : Go get something to eat
61. Listening to : The sound of my thoughts
62. Waiting for : Classes to start back up so I can see my friends again!

YOUR FUTURE
63. Want kids? : None of my own, thanks.
64. Want to get married? : If I meet someone, then maybe.
65. Careers in mind? : Something science. I'd really love to teach high school physics, actually.

WHICH IS BETTER WITH THE OPPOSITE GENDER?
66. Lips or eyes : Eyes. I love looking at people's eyes, actually. <_<
67. Hugs or kisses : Definitely hugs, but I'm not one for physical affection.
8. Shorter or taller : Taller, but that's really not that difficult.
69. Older or Younger : Meh, the few people I'd consider (or have considered) dating have been younger, but not by much.
70. Romantic or spontaneous : Romantic
71. Nice stomach or nice arms : Physical attraction does not matter.
72. Sensitive or loud : Sensitive <3
73. Hook-up or relationship : Relationship
74. Trouble maker or hesitant : Well, it'd be difficult to be more hesitant than I am.

HAVE YOU EVER
75. Cried yourself to sleep : Yeah
76. Passed out after drinking : No, but I saw someone throw up in the recycling bins in one of the dorms during finals week because he was so drunk. >_<
77. Kissed a stranger : Nope
78. Drank hard liquor? : Never have and never will.
79. Jumped in a pool with clothes on : Yes
80. Lost glasses/contacts : Too many times to count.
81. Sex on first date : Not until marriage!
82. Broken someone's heart : How should I know?
83. Had your own heart broken : Not really.
87. Cried when someone died? : No. I don't cry when people die. Well, maybe I did...
88. Liked a friend that is the opposite gender? : Yes.

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
89. Yourself : I exist.
90. Miracles : Yes
91. Love at first sight : No. Love's a choice that you have to make every day. I believe in mental attraction at first meeting, though. <_<
92. Heaven : Yes
93. Santa Claus : He was modeled after a historical figure, but the "Santa Claus" that children believe is real doesn't exist. Sorry.
95. Kiss on the first date? : No. I don't want to kiss on the lips until I get engaged.
96. Angels : That they exist? Sure.

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
97. Is there one person you want to be with right now? : Yes
98. Who is it? : Well, there are several people, actually. I'd love for my sister to be around.
99. Had more than one boyfriend/girlfriend at one time? : No. I've never had a significant other.
100. Told 100 truths on this? : Yes...